I’m back !!!

It is not a Writers Block – I can’t have one – simply because I’m not a Writer. 🙂 . Mr. Murphy with his Law turned my life up – side – down. On Friday, October 19 – I was just finishing my new post entitled: “Healing powers of laughter ” 🙂 – when I found myself in a very stressful situation – ( Satan at it’s best ) – and I had to run for my Life –  but I colapsed in the middle of the street – and got picked -up by Ambulance. My blood pressure was 220/100 – and I spent 3 days in the Hospital. After several tests I was diagnosed with mild hearth attack, high blood pressure, spots on my liver, thickened esophagus. I asked  the Doctor: “what is realy wrong with me ?” – he said that they needed to do more test ( ??? ). So I ran from the Hospital, because I was feeling worse with every passing hour. And at that time they accused me of being suicidal ??? Me ??? Ha !!! Ha !!! So I lost my job, living space and I’m now in Homeless Shelter. Lost my Internet Connection…………………………………………………….

My body is weak, but my Spirit higher than ever. And I’m only frustrated about the time lost. It’s going to take some time to organize some New Life. My new challenge: I have to bring myself back to my old self – oneanna65. ( Because today I’m feeling like – oneanna95 )  🙂 !

So Mr. Murphy – whatever bad could happen, has allready happened – so you have to leave me alone – I mean it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And I promise you All I will be back soon. I have so much more to tell you…….

Thank you for visiting !  Wishing you all the best !

Sincerely            Oneanna95       🙂 !

197 thoughts on “I’m back !!!”

  1. Your strength and humour in adversity have always impressed me and never more than now. They’ve stood by you, and will continue to do so. Keep posting whenever you can. Let us know what’s happening.

  3. Bravo to you. You can do ANYTHING you put your mind to. I look forward to seeing your rise… “In the depth of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer.”

  4. Very concerned, dear lady.

    You don’t mention the presence of friends or relations. Be assured that the rest of your followers do care. It is hard though, to put (at a distance; in my case Germany) that concern into concrete action. Do you have the areas of the spread of your fans, especially, who might help directly? Surely some could assure your immediate comfort, as well as they can.

    Glad to correspond and help in calming you down; I have direct experience in the heart and cancer fields as a patient with both.

    Warmest wishes and a plea for resting as much as possible – and also pulling back a bit on any outward anger, That won’t help,

    Neil

  5. You are strong and you belong in this world. Keep looking ahead, never back. Keep posting and believe. I think you’ve had enough Job trials and you’re ready to step out from under that burden and into a stronger, healthier and happier life. Believe it will be better each day, focus on any one positive thing and hold it until it becomes two, then three, then four… ❤

  8. Anna, I think all your followers here admire your wonderful spirit, but some of us a tad concerned that you’re not getting all the help that you might need at present! Make sure you take good care of yourself, and know that our thoughts and best wishes are with you…;)

  9. My heart would break for you, but if you say you are in good spirits, I will be too. I am sending all my positive energy, thoughts, and prayers your way.

    Please take good care of yourself and surround yourself with people who can help.

  11. Will be praying for you. Please keep me updated how you are. If you need a shoulder or anything please contact me through my blog and I will do all I can. Keep you head up and you seem like a strong woman so you will be fine.

  14. Ah, Murphy…I know him well! I see he’s not getting you down either! Good for you!!! We’re in a time of radical change and each of us is being presented with our own personal challenges. Facing them & working through them means an opportunity for wondrous things to happen in our lives. Many blessings to you, as you work through yours. ~Namaste~

  16. I am so sorry to hear about all the issues, but as everybody has said, a good attitude goes a long way. I know that you will get back on your feet….and find your shelter soon. Praying for you.

  20. Wow. I just listened to a sermon today, and it talked about Paul and all the horrific suffering he had gone through (torture, prison, being stoned), but what he had to say about his own suffering was this:

    “For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison…” ~2 Corinthians 4:17

    I don’t know how he is able to call it “light momentary affliction,” or how you are able to be so positive.

    I am not sure if you believe in God, but this post, and you, are an example to me of how to “suffer well,” and how to keep the right perspective on everything bad that happens. So I just wanted to thank you for being a light to me. =)

    Please keep writing. Your words do not go unheard.
    ~Kim

  21. As schrudlu wrote, I do hope you have a warm set of people around you. Wish you all the best, keep up your positive spirit up! But most of all take good care of yourself.

  29. What a time you’ve had, and what a great spirit you have! Know that I am thinking of you and praying for you and sending best wishes your way.

  32. I can’t believe all of this has happened to you and your still
    smiling. You must be a very strong person, and I’m so pleased
    to have met you on WordPress. Stay strong, stay positive, and
    keep the strong faith you have.

  37. OneAnna – I love you! You’re in my heart. That you can write the way you do… I can only shake my head. Just so you know, my blog pic doesn’t look anything like what I’ve been through. But I know what it’s like to live in a shelter, and to sleep in the waiting halls of a train station eleven times.. It can be hectic. So you need strength at this time.
    And those of us who pray, will pray for you.
    Most of all, may an opportunity arise not only to get you on your feet, but to provide you with a warm safe home, if not of your own, then at least where you can be comfortable. The Lord strengthen you with might in the inner man. Thanks for letting us know how you are.

  39. What the heck? That is really scary. How can this happen so fast? You losing your job and your home, having that high blood pressure? It’s certainly good, that you don’t lose hope and I guess you have the necessary strength. But I’m rather worried about you. I try not to be. Worrying creates bad vibes.

  42. Oh my. I hope you are well. It sounds like a very chaotic and difficult time. Please don’t take your health for granted, let the doctors help you ( even if it seems they don’t know what the heck they are doing). Just take precautions. Be well!

  43. Dear Anna, please ask for help – both for medical and for social! It would not be the sign of weakness – on the contrary. I think you could feel the strength and value of your personality if you let others take care of you in your present difficult situation. Seek for helping hands, trust your fantastic spirit and show it to others around you! You deserve help and I’m sure that you will find the opportunity to pay it back later!

  46. Glad to hear you are back and I will send angels in your direction – believing in miracles for you now, today and in the days to come. Thanks for liking my new blog, I hope it brings a smile to your face and encouragement to your strong spirit! God bless!

  49. Hi!! Your strength is amazing and there will be silver lining-probably gold!! I hope you have a home again soon. I know what it’s like to be homeless and in shelters. Experience long time ago. If I was nearby would offer straight away my home!!! Lot’s of love and healing and helpful caring people around you I wish for you!!!!

  52. Prayers…prayers…! Sometimes life gets to be so uncertain but you know that. I know what it is like-and I know you know… So, take care of yourself and enjoy the pods of joy as you are able to encounter them. Take care!

  54. Oh my goodness, how awful. I honestly don’t know how you can write with such humour about it but much respect to you. I really hope that things improve for you very soon. Keep posting as and when you can, you are an absolute inspiration.x

  57. Please keep all of us posted on how you are doing. We care. If you give a clue to where you live, country, city, is all I need to know, I can hook you up with some free sources of assistance. You can’t be coping with a serious illness and a lack of place to stay. Well, I guess you can, because you are strong,and are doing it, but you shouldn’t have too.

  58. Humor in the face of adversity? My style exactly. Update when you can? Really sucks being sick and facing unnecessary Bullsheet. A heart attack, mild or not is nothing to apuse at. SLOW DOWN. Take a breath. Take another. One more deep slow in…count to ten…2 3 4 56 7,,,,8…………..9….10 OK let it out . Let it all out. breath out from the very bottom of your soul. Reach into your lungs and grab all the negative ions. Let them out. OK? Ready….breath in to the count of ten. slow and steady. (I’ll let you count) When you reach ten. HOLD IT. Count to 5 slowly…..one thousand and one one thousand and two onethousand and three, four one thousand and five. OK breath out slowly . Count to ten slow. As your count take the negative ions, bad cell aroma and anything else and blow it out of your lungs. and world.
    OK now. Update soon? The medical field ALWAYS assumes that a woman primarily suffers from depression and is suicidal until you can prove differently…..Prove them wrong! Laugh at then and don’t let them in on the secret, 🙂

  61. Welcome back and I so hope you will soon feel better and have answers as well. I really wish things were easier for you but hang in there and leaving you a ((( ))) and a hope. Cris x

  62. I am really touched that you took some precious computer time to look at my Blog and find the posting “Úp!”. The little dog Puffin and you would get along really well, she is independent and determined and makes me laugh every day. Positive thoughts directed your way. Let colour inspire you and lift your spirits.

  66. Amazing. I always say that we learn more in the face of adversity than through our achievements. You are proof of that. Keep your sense of humor, it’s an amazing tool to get you through…and of course I will be checking back to find out where this crazy life may be taking you. Although I don’t know you, I feel I do through your posts. Best of luck to you.

  68. Anna,
    I don’t usually post comments like this but Psalm 121 came to mind as I was reading your post.

    I look up to the mountains – does my help come from there?
    My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth!
    He will not let you stumble; the one who watches over you will not slumber.
    Indeed, he who watches over Israel never slumbers or sleeps.
    The Lord himself watches over you!
    The Lord stands beside you as your protective shade.
    The sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon at night.
    The Lord keeps you from all harm and watches over your life.
    The Lord keeps watch over you as you come and go, both now and forever.

    Declare the words of the Lord that you know to be true in your heart. Speak it out loud as a reminder of all the good things God has prepared for you. Pray as if it has already happened and thank Him for it. Do not pray as if you only hope God will do it in the future. Pray as if it has already happened today in your life, in the current time. God is greater than anything that Satan throws your way and I pray that you will be strengthen by His love, grace and peace in the mists of all your trials. I declare that what ever pains or symptoms you feel in your body it has been heal by the blood of Jesus, By His strips you have healed in Jesus name.
    Remember that you are a beacon of light where ever you go so SHINE the light that God has placed in you.

  72. I love your spirit and I pray for you. I hope you find a good dwelling close to a place with free computers and internet access, here in California most public library offer the service. Receive my best wishes.

  74. HI- thank you for visiting my blog. I came to check yours out and am quite intrigued. You seem to have an amazing spirit- I will continue to check in with you. Be well!

  75. Thanks for stopping by our blog too and I too read several of your posts .. and love your spirit and attitude. 🙂 So sorry to hear you’re dealing with more crap tho, and hopefully you kick Mr Murphy in the butt so he moves along. Take care and stay safe, j

  76. Wow. You certainly are getting your share. Please be strong and seek help from helpful people you can trust. I have a lot of peoplke in my life I have to worry about and now you have drawn me to your blog and joined the list. So I selfishly ask you “show the world the spirit you show us here”. Please post again soon.
    ~ Dawn

  77. Thanks for popping by my blog and liking one of my posts… I hope you are getting better. Please take care of yourself – there is strength in seeking help, as well as in being independent!

  80. Dear Anna,

    Thank you for that “like click” on my post about the Guatemala earth quake. That gave me a link to here, more or less. i just read all of the loving comments, above, and there is a bit of good adivice in the, here and there, and lots of well desserved love and respect in all of them.
    Have you thought about driving a shuttle (bus or van ar whatever they use) for a transportation contractor? Such as an airport, or re-hab facility, or day-care, or retirement home, or even a school bus?? With your skills and CDL there should be a driving job, somewhere.

    You might need some pro-bono leagal aide to get whatever smudges the hospital put on your well-being chart. The comment (in your post) about being called suicidal leading to the loss of your most recent employment is not good. Oviously one of those off the cuff decisions that has cascading effects. There needs to be a dam erected in front of that remark. That is IF you feel up to keeping on working, otherwise you probably do qualify for SSDI or SSI. Which can help, maybe. Those are funds you, and many of us, have paid into, for the purpose of having that safety net be there when you, or ourselves, need it. Assuming (from your language style), that you are in the USA?

    Have you thought about teaching those driver’s ed. classes that folks have to take to keep points off their licenses for violations? or teaching at a driver’s school. There are all sorts of specialized trainers used to teach classes or tutor. Or even working for the state conducting the licensing tests.

    Just some thoughts … one of my incarnations in a past life, in this life, or some time or the other, working to help find (or make) employment for persons who needed that sort of assistance. At that time the people I worked with (for) were blind. Very few were drivers in the driving trade 🙂

    Most libraries have computers … which are a good source for local resources. Librarians are experts at finding information.

    Thank you for sharring so much of the vulnerable part of you Self. You have inspired lots of people to bear up with courage and good heart to deal with their own problems and challenges. Me, as well.

    Thank you for all that you have done.
    Granny

    ps I missed your Birthday last Spring. Happy Belated Birthday!!

  87. Keep up the spirit, Anna. Recently, I happened to explore the benefits of pranayama (breathing practices) and was amazed at the benefits, pranayama has to offer, if followed properly. It has a complete benefit for the body and mind. These techniques were tested by hundreds in the yoga camps as mentioned in the video with great results. I hope you can check the video yourself for more details and make pranayama a part of your life to fight cancer.

    May you get healthy the healthy way!

  90. your strength and courage is amazing. Kick Murphy in the teeth and keep writing because I absolutely love reading your blog. This world needs more people like you.

  97. don’t know where you are geographically, but I hope that some of the followers do and can round up the help that you need. Meanwhile, I am thinking of you and if you need anything I CAN help with, just ask. I had a dear friend who had health issues that make yours look like a common cold – she had the same wonderful spirit that you show – she always used to say “trust the universe, it is unfolding as it should – ask for what you need/want and it will come to you.” Her faith seemed to work for her, I know that yours will hold you strong. But don’t be afraid to ask for the help you need.

  98. Praying for you. I know how it is to not really have any where to go. I found myself having to send my kids to live with their dad in September because I had no where to go. He was nice enough to let me stay with them but we have to find something by the end of the month to do and I don’t know what we are going to do then. I just keep doing what i can and praying trying not to stress knowing that if I do all I can and don’t give up god will provide.

  105. Anna you have such a resilient spirit……..that in itself is a great testimony!…….it’s like no matter what happens in your life, your message to the devil is “you may mess with my body, my mind, my emotions and even my stuff, but you sure ain’t touching my spirit.,,,,,,,,,,:)……happy that you found so many of my posts to be a blessing………Shalom!……Kim

  106. Thanks for liking my first steps here. You seem to have a positive view of life despite of great difficulties. It shines. Life is how you look at it. I am pleased to meet you here and hope you’ll stay with us for long! Nannus (As-if-o-scope 🙂

  107. Dear Sweet sister, I just discovered you bog today and all i can say is WOW! I read your b-day blog and it had me smiling for hours!! I feel in complete adoration for you! I read your last two blogs and tears are swelling up as I right this. All I can say to you is this. I was in a similar situation as you. I have been healthy for my whole life. When my body started “speaking” to me, I listened. I too had to go to a shelter. But I was away from stress. I am so thankful for my home, but during the time I was in a shelter with my 3 children, we were in the presence of God. I see you walking, yes in pain, but in the presence of God. Love You Dearly!! may God provide for you according to His riches and glory!! xoxoxo

  110. Sending best wishes and appreciation for your candor, humor and courage. I hope you are able to get internet access on a regular basis because there is sooo much free information and inspiration that could be helpful in regard to health (mental, emotional, physical and spiritual) and conscious well-being. I’m glad you seem to visit my blog periodically (thanks for liking my posts!) because I mention a lot of the stuff I’ve come across there, so hopefully some of the things there have been/will be of support to you.

    Bless you!

  113. I send you warm thoughts and wishes for a speedy recovery. Please take care and do keep us posted on how you are doing. Your strength is incredible. Hoping for all good things for you.

  115. I am sorry to know that you have been sick and your whole situation. We don’t really know in which city you live but I am sure some of us would be glad to help you if possible. Your positive attitude and faith is inspiring. I’ll be praying for you.

  120. When you get to our age and you wake up without an ache or pain somewhere, you wonder if your still alive. 🙂 I find life quite exciting most days, but there are always the black ones to get through every now and then. Just keep your spirits up and try to enjoy every day as it unfolds. All the best Leo.

  124. This positive energy coming from within your heart is very strong! It is very impressive. May God grant you the strenght to carry on and better still, let his healing power locate you! Trust me, you have touched a life today. Thank you!

    1. welcome back dear one ❤ I missed you so much and prayed for your health. you are source of inspiration my dear. you will live a healthy life very soon—–I am SURE OF IT 🙂 OUR BEST WARM WISHES ARE WITH YOU

  129. If I can still be hanging around after they declared me dead, 21 years ago, and earlier this year they gave me about a year to live – then you can pull up your socks and get it together as well. Keep fighting to survive! Don’t let the doctors get you down!

  130. Doctors seem to me evolved or maybe devolved from what they were but without altering their image in the public mind. Yet. You’re right, one must be one’s own case manager, more so in serious situations. Also true in life generally, I suppose. As the old machine-shop Latin was always translated: “Don’t let the bastards grind you down!”
    Applause!

  132. That you would post on my topic that “I’m Losing it” when you have such struggles yourself is a testament to your loving support of others. I thank you from the bottom of my heart. You’re a dear person and I wish you Well!
    Steve

  135. I am glad to know that there are people out there who, when their situation thinks it has them backed against a wall, they talk back to it; and refuse to go silently into the dark. Your best days are yet to come and I hope I have the chance to celebrate them with you.
    Eric

  139. Anna – We are grateful that you are back, even though you have gone through so much adversity.
    I grumble about needing to lose a kilogram or 2 by Christmas Day…how some people’s posts can put things into perspective for others. Take Care and I hope you enjoy a beautiful Christmas.

  144. Hope you recover in health, wealth and happiness. Hope you regain, your friends and connections.
    Hope you feel better every minute. Good..you escaped from hourly measures, no you are not suicidal..you are a certified survivor :))

  146. Thank you for stopping by my blog and liking my post. I just read yours and I must say you have an indomitable spirit and I hope that you keep going. I look forward to reading more of your posts.

  147. I read you, and I care, and this is all I have to offer:
    Remember, fair is a place they sell cotton candy and have a mid-way with rigged games,
    it is not life, but life, your’s, mine all ours is in motion and has fork(s),
    Groucho said, ‘when you come to the fork in the road, take it’, base your destination on where you want to be, and remember where you were, how you got there and then LET IT GO!
    I read you, and I care, and this is all I have to offer:

    1. PLEASE CHECK THIS VIRE PROPHESSIONAL OPPINION BECAUSE I AM NOT QUALIFIED ABOUT THIS AND AM NOT SURE BUT I THING I HIT THE JACKPOT FOR ANY ILNESS DESEASE I BELEIVE THAT IN ANY PROBLEM LIKE A BONE PROBLEM YOU NEED BONE FOOD I THINK HUMAN RIGHT KIND OF CALSIUM LOTS THINGS THAT FIXES AND DEVELOPES THE BONES OF IT BUT ALSO A HEALTHY ORGANIC DIET AND PLEATLY OF CLEAN HEALTHY WATER FROM THE RAIN NOT TAPED BUT FILTERED SO AS THEN IF THE PROBLEM IS IN THE BRAIN THE SAME COMON SENCE UPLIES YOU NEED BRAIN FOOD FOOD THAT HEALS AND DEVELOPS FIXES UP THE MIND SO AS OF CORSE YOU NEED A BALANCE HEALTY DIET ALSO AND SAME KIND OF CLEAN WATER SO AS THEN FOR ANY PART OF THE BODY FOR ANY PROBLEM YOU NEED THE FOOD FOR THAT PART OF THE BODY AND LOTS OF IT SO AS HEALTY DIETS AND SAME KIND OF WATER YOU NEED IN ALL THESE HEALTY DRINKS ORGANIC FRUIT VEGITABLES FOR STRENGTH TO GO ON FOR REVERSING OLD AGE YOU NEED TO DO RESEARCH IF THERE IS FOOD DRINKS THAT CAN DO THAT ALSO THAT BUT ONES THE ALDULT REVERSES THERE BIRTHDAY THAT THEY GO YOUNG AGAIN TO 21 THEN YOU GOT TO STOP IT AND USE WHATEVER WE FIND TO COMPLEATELY STOP THE AGE PROCESS SO AS THE YOUNG WHEN THE REACH 21 YOU USE THAT TO STOP THE AGE PROCEES YOU CAN USE PERSCRIBED MEDINE IF THE DOC SAYS BUT FOOD DRINKS SO ON IS BETTER I RECOND WE NEES TO FIND TREATMENTS IN THE ABOVE BUT FOR PROBLEMS THAT REALATE IN COMBINATION(S) KIND OF PROBLEMS YOU NEED WHAT TYPE OF FOODS HEAL FIX DEVELOP THOSE PARTS OF THE HUMAN BODY IN WHAT PROBLEM(S) YOU HAVE AND WHAT PARTS OF THE HUMAN BODY HAVE THIS PROBLEM(c) SO AS HEALTHY DIETS SO AS SAME WATTER YOU ALSO NEED TO EXSERSISE BALANCED AS FLESIBILTY, ALL MUSLES, EXSERSISE ALL MUSLES FITNESS MIND TRAINNING SCKILL TRAINNING START LESS THEN INCREASE = LESS IS MORE BECAUSE YOU DEVELOP IT AND NOT DESTROY THE BODY FROM OVERLOADING IT, (WORK ALSO PHICICAL MENTAL SPIRITAL AS 3 JOBS DEVIDED EQUALLY BUT SAME AS EXSERSIZE LESS IS MORE, SOME SUNLIGHT WITH THE RIGHT SUNSREAN, YOU NEED ALSO PLANTY OF REST SLEEP WHEN NEEDED, YOU MUST NOT TAKE ANYTHING THAT IS POISON LIKE SIGS COFFEE OR ANYTHING NOT FOR HUMAN CONSUMPTION, YOU DEFENTLY NEED TO TRUST GOD AND DEFENTLY IF YOU LAKE ANY ONE OR MORE OF THE ABOVE TO TRUST GOD NOT JUST FOR HIM TO SAVE YOU BUT FOR ANYTHING LIKE HE CAN DO THE IMPOSSIBLE AND KEEP YOU ALIVE FOREVER LIKE SEE END ABOUT NEAR MARK GOSPEL SAYING THEY SHALL DRINK DEDLY POISONS AND IT SHALL NOT HAVE ANY EFFECT ON THEM IF THEY BELEIVE ME = (DRINK) IN THE OLD MEANS USING ANY TYPE OF POISON USING IT IN ANY KIND OF WAY POISON ALSO MEENS TO DRINK IT ALSO MEANNING THE DESEPTION OF EVIL LIKE BEEN DESEAVED BY IT BUT WE ARE NOT PERMITED TO TEST GOD BY DOING THAT OR TAKING POISON THINGS BUT IF WE ARE ADICTS THAT HIS GRACE MERCY IS FOR US WITH THIS YOU CAN NOT DIE EVER OR BE ILL SICK EXSEPT IF GOD TAKES YOU AWAY TO THE RESERECTION OF ETERNAL LIFE THAT IS WHEN HE DOES. BUT IF YOU ME OTHERS SERVIVE TO THE END OF THE AGE THEN WE ARE NOT RAISED BUT ACCEND HOME WITH ALL OTHERS THAT ARE RAISED HEALED TOTALLY FOR THE ALWAYS SO ON

  158. You’ll get through this. I speak from experience — ATTITUDE is everything. Don’t give up, don’t back down. Let people see you walking around with your head UP! Best Regards, Jack Teeter

  161. Best wishes to a complete recovery. The Devil can only kick us when we are down. By the sound of it, you are climbing back up! Reach for those stars!

  164. Doctors and Surgeons can be brilliant at first aid and stuff but when it comes to keeping you healthy, I guess really only you can do that … good luck!

  182. I don’t like to dwell on the negative and so I won’t. Fast approaching my 68th birthday I can speak to the many things that come with my age – high blood pressure, high cholesterol, diabetes – I’m just glad to be alive. So like you I am a survivor and celebrate it. Thanks for dropping by my page and wishing you the best. Also wishing you a belated happy birthday.

  185. How is it possible that you have lost your job because of the doctor? Can they interfere in your job life? I think people has the right to decide if they want to take more tests or not. I’m glad that your spirit is higher than ever. I wish you the best.
    Kind greetings,
    Marianne

  187. Thanks for liking my ‘The Virgin Author’ post.Reading your story is touching,but more importantly you are fantasically inspirational.I lost my brother to cancer ,he was only 53.Keep winning you wonder woman!.
    Love from Ireland,
    Mark

  188. Reblogged this on Ireland by Chance and commented:
    Anna is a cancer survivor who blogs (and follows my blog). She hit a very rough patch. One no one should ever have to find themselves in. I admire her courage and her positive “can do” spirit very much. I think you will, too….

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